A little PCOS frustration... I think Soy failed me.

I am starting to think it's possible the Soy failed me, but I am not 100% sure. First of all, I really thought I had ovulated the last week in May... had all the symptoms... and then about 5 days later, I got hit really hard with ovary pain; I really thought it was another large cyst. I was miserable for about 3 days, then it went away. I am thinking it's possible I actually ovulated then... now, the thing is, if I did in fact ovulate, I did it very late... day 26 in my cycle. So as you can predict, I am now on day 40 and it seems as if the evil witch is no where in sight. My last POAS (pee on a stick) session as last Friday, which was obviously a big fat negative. I tested based on the thought that I ovulated in May. I really thought the witch would at least show her face by then... but alas, here I am, super late and nothing in sight. I'm frustrated beyond all frustration right now. I called my doctor this morning to leave a message for her to call me back... I found myself fighting off tears as I told the receptionist, "Please tell Dr. Felix that it's day 40 and I still haven't started, she knows what I've been going through with this... I'd like to come in Friday morning for a P4 if nothing shows by then. I need her to call me. I don't know what else to do."

If anything, it should at least start by Friday morning. I've had the symptoms for over a week now. Try feeling like you're on your period every single day, only to actually not be. I cramp, my lower back is tight, my ovaries hurt, I'm moody, sensitive, sore, and annoyed. I'm hungry and can't stop eating iced molasses cookies! I know Dr. Felix is going to want me to test at home tomorrow-Friday before coming in Friday morning, just in case. I don't feel like wasting the money, but I will. I'm tired and irritable. I don't know if I should try Soy again. Right now, my confidence is gone. If Soy means I have to have super long cycles with no answers, then screw it. I'll go back on the Clomid! Only Friday will tell... the P4 will tell me everything... did I ovulate? Do I need supplements? Just have to be patient until then...